A tired day.

Last night my church youth group had their Christmas activity and I went to be helpful.  I don't really know what's going on in my body with this particular pregnancy, but I know that quite often I get really light headed and things start to blur in my vision.  If I'm not careful I will faint.  At the same time it is difficult for me to catch my breath and when I talk through it I end up sounding really melodramatic.  It's actually kind of amusing to others.  So, last night I started to get dizzy and light headed and instead of taking it serious, or sitting down I just kept on helping stir hot chocolates, filling cups, etc. for the youth group to enjoy after the activity.  Now several of the adults I work with think I'm a bit interesting to say the least.  I have a certain idea in my head of how I want to come across and it eats at me when things like this happen and first impressions are had. 

Dark, rainy day and 4 months pregnant with two totts.

Being 4 months pregnant, sometimes I feel like I'll never feel better.  I'm having a taste of what it's like to have a chronic condition.  People ask me all the time if I'm feeling better yet, sometimes I even look better and sound better, but it doesn't mean that I feel better.  It's frustrating when I feel like I'm expected to get better and if I don't then I'm just a weak or wimpy person.  For four months I wake up and want to throw up, sometimes actually throwing up and struggle all day to get over the feeling.  In the meantime, my two toddlers 2 and 3 still need me.  There's still laundry to do, dishes to clean and put away, little teeth to brush, hair to wash, clothes to put away and sort, toys to put away, fix, etc. 
  Even though I have still been sick I have just decided that I want to pick up pre-school with my kiddos again so today we had our debut and they loved it.  Several times I dry heaved during the abc's and needed to take a nap when we were all done.  I am like a new born!  Eat, sleep, drink a little, sleep some more.  You want to know why I'm cranky sometimes?  Wake a sleeping baby and ask them.  ;)  Anyway, I am so grateful for the opportunity to be a mother several times over.  It is just tough right now while I'm so sick and for such a long time. 


Here's a SUPER fun little girl website I found one day when I just really needed an hour to sleep but didn't want to leave my toddlers to themselves.  It has the cutest printout pictures, games and more:  http://www.disney.co.uk/princess/print-and-colour/?princess=rapunzel